Thursday, March 18, 2010
I'm sitting on the front step of my grandparents house. It's the eve of my 34th birthday and I am saddened. Saddened because I'm not sure if this is the last time I will spend with my grandma. It's been coming for a while but that doesn't ease the wealth of emotion I am experiencing at this moment. What I am greatful for is the love that is being shared with her as friends come to wish her well as she moves on to the next chapter in her life. That we are bonding together and holding tight to the knowledge that she will be free from pain and confusion, that she will be shining her ever bright light onto us as we move about the earth. She has always been a most amazing woman and I am so fortunate to have had her for so long. Fortunate that our daughter has experienced all the love that great-grandmas give. Fortunate that I received so much love and knowledge and care and fun. Fortunate too that my little Brenna is sick, not that I ever want her to be sick but more that I can spend the time with her and with grandma, time that I otherwise may not have with either of them.The memories are many and fill my heart with joy. So today I am sad, but I will rejoice when she lets go because she will be in a better place, no longer tired, no longer in pain, but free.